DECOMPOSING

This is not my true nature.
I was not born as what i have come to be.

To be gentle again...

An angel's heart given flight by demon's wings faces certian death.

Do not let this exterior deceive you.
I can easily crush your spirit.
My wounds bleed truth.
Their voices are caustic, and with the words...
A nas...

If these hands would only kill.
They'd cleanse the world with its own blood.
They'd cleanse the world, if these hands would only kill.
These hand should cleanse your soul of the lust and the greed of this world.
And they call me a fool as they do so well.
Destroy the morality none have known for so long i...

Im turning 22 tuesday.
How do I really feel about that? I dont think I have any feeling.
Hmmm.
Life is going by so fast.
I dont really know what to think about it.

So I was thinking today, Do you remember when it was cool to IM people?
Instant Message.
Well...when did that stop?
Maybe I just think it...

Im getting married in July.
How fuckin sweet is that?!
I was getting so stressed out about planning it, that Dougs mom helped us pick out a simple fun place to get married...On top if a mountain at Lake Tahoe!
Its gonna be rad. I cant wait.
We're going to have our honey moon down there too!
Man o man.
Its ...

Dude. I have 4 days off from work. I love my job. I really do.
We picked out my title at work too...It was going to be "Executive Secretary", but now I am officially called " Billings / Contract Administrator".
Fuckin sweet I know!
I am so excited to see Poison the Well next month...AND Every Time I D...

I really dont know how to act sometimes. Its getting ridiculous.
I always do this. Its something that can not be avoided.
My emotions.....Its like I dont have any. 
Everything seems to be a fucking life or death situation.
Everything is rushed.
Haha. Man o man.
I guess Im in quite the predicament.
Eh....